I went through a huge bout of depression at the end of last year, which lasted a month or so. I had to go it alone, without outside help and I think that is why it took so long to pass. I am currently teetering on the line of normality and mania, but I am holding strong and I hope as the days and weeks pass, the line gets further and further away.
I know we are two weeks into the New Year, but I still wanted to share my goals. I believe putting them out there helps to push towards them.
This is a random collective of things, but I feel if I can nail down the majority of them, my life quality will significantly increase.
So, without further ado, here are my goals for the year:
Drink More Water: This is something I have already been working on and I have good days and bad days. Sometimes I can easily drink two or more litres of water and other days I almost forget to drink anything. The frequent trips to the bathroom are slightly off-putting, but I hear water is good for you all round, so I will persevere.
Sort Out Sleep Pattern: The getting up part of this is less of a problem than actually falling asleep, although I have had a couple of extreme lay ins. My main problem is getting to sleep. Having a full nights sleep is important in making me feel present. I have tried the sleep whenever you fall and wake at the same time every morning method, but it has fallen on deaf ears as I am always wide come night time, no matter how little sleep I have had. It is a working progress, but I am sure of a positive outcome.
Blog More: I honestly do not know what happened in regards to my keeping up with blogging. It is honestly something I love doing and one day the spark left me and seemed to never come back. I felt like I had nothing to say as my mind was blank and negative. I am not sure that will make sense to anyone, but it is the only way I can describe it. I did plan on coming back on a regular basis after my first post of a year, but there was a debacle with WordPress and myself when I decided I did not want to continue with a premium subscription and let me just say, once you stop being a paying customer, they have no intention of being helpful. I loved WordPress as a platform, it was my safe space and their customer service team really put a damper on what was a wonderful two year experience. I have decided that that is in the past and I will carry on as I intended and so here I am. I still need to figure out what I would like the blog to be called, everything I have thought of so far is not original, so only time will decide my new online persona. Last note on this blog is that there will be a redesign. By that I mean I will be switching the theme and personalising it. I was happy with my current theme, but that was part of the premium package and they reverted me back to a random “free” theme and so I need to spend a couple of hours having a look through the back end and prettying everything up.
Read: I have to be honest, my goal was to read one book per week and end the year on 52 books read. Well, I have already failed this, for reasons explained above. I will not let this get me down though, instead I decided to aim for a more realistic goal and read one book per month, ending the year on at least 12 books read. It is better than nothing and still a worthy goal. With that being said, I am looking for book recommendations. I have taken a liking to decent Thrillers with lots of what I like to describe as Bamboozles. I also love Fantasy and anything that can really get me invested. If you have any suggestions, please let me know. It would help me out a lot.
Write that Damned Book: This elusive book I have been speaking of for so long, it is still happening. The passion I have for it is still there and I would be beyond happy if I could get round to making my idea come to life. I mentioned in my last post that I was going to elaborate on said book and that is still the plan, but that will be a separate post. I have three main ideas for books. One is a full length novel, which is the one that is most important to me to write. The second is a collection of short stories which share a common theme and the third is a collection of poetry. They are all in process at different stages, but I know I need to pick one and work on that primarily, which will be the novel. Writing this will help me in more ways than one and I will touch more on that in its dedicated post. To all who have bought me a Ko.Fi in support of my book, firstly, thank you so much and secondly, I have not touched that money. It always was and always will be for the sole purpose of making this dream a reality. In the long run I will need an editor, a book cover and all of that good stuff and that is what the money is intended for.
There were a couple of other things, but I see this post is already reaching 1000 words. And I thought I could not write any more!
My main goal from me to you is to post more frequently. At this point I have to be realistic, so I am aiming for at least once a week. Once I get back into the swing of things, I know it will be more often than that.
To everyone who is still here, thank you. To anyone who is just joining, welcome. I am truly grateful to have your support, were it not for you, this blog would not still be standing and that means the world to me.
Until next time, I love you all.
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