I would say that I remember about 90% of my dreams, at least for a little while after I wake up. Some of them stick with me and I can’t shake them off. The worst are the reoccurring nightmares that seem to never go away.

For the past few nights I have experienced some horrific dreams that have left me waking up and not wanting to go back to sleep, because I know it’s possible for me to return to that particular dream. Having a vivid imagination at times like this is not a good thing as what I see seems so real and the things that happen in my dreams I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy.

I used to think that I only had nightmares when I was stressed, or there was something niggling at the back of my mind and the nightmare was a hint for me to figure out what was wrong. This is strange though because as far as I’m aware, everything is okay. I don’t know if this is a way my anxiety has managed to worm it’s way into my brain, knowing it’s a way I can’t control it and it is not a good feeling.

I try to not let it consume my day, but waking up and feeling sad or scared is getting old and I wish I knew why I was having such terrifying dreams.

There are a lot of theories as to why we dream, but as far as I know, there is nothing set in stone to help me figure this out. I thought I was finally moving forward and it seems that any part of my mind that possibly can, is trying to pull me back. At this point all I can do is keep looking ahead and hope whatever this problem really is will surface and I can face it, or the nightmares subside as soon as possible.

Usually I love to sleep, I love to dream. It brings me so many ideas and sometimes it feels like I’m watching a movie in my head, which is awesome. Fingers crossed tonight is better.

Until next time, Sweet dreams!

-Sara

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