I think that no matter who we are and how comfortable we are with ourselves, we all have insecurities. This leads us to either slightly, or drastically changing things about ourselves in order to fit in.
I know in my younger years fitting in was imperative to me, I did stupid things like wearing certain outfits that weren’t me, to not wearing my glasses when I was supposed to, because I thought they looked uncool. I even stopped wearing my retainer due to peer mockery.
I quickly learned that I didn’t want to be the person I was portraying. I wasn’t interested in doing the things my peers wanted to do and it wasn’t worth spending my time doing activities I found uninteresting for the sake being part of the “in crowd”.
Eventually I developed my own style and I stuck to doing things I was interested in. By doing this my old friends went. This was okay, because it proved to me I was right in thinking my friendships were superficial.
These days I am pretty introverted, I don’t really like putting myself out there and I enjoy the company of a handful of true friends who I always enjoy spending time with.
I don’t know if anybody really has those friendships portrayed on television, where there is a group of people who consistently hang out on a daily basis. Although it looks appealing, I like my own time too much and I could never commit to such a dynamic.
I’m a gamer, have been as long as I can remember and I have met the nicest, most caring and awesome friends through something I truly enjoy.
I started blabbing on a bit there, sorry!
My point is: Be yourself!
Let people love you for who you are, not who you think they want you to be. This way, you will have the truest people in your life.
I may not be perfect, but I like who I am and I think I’m getting to a point in my life where I can say I’m truly happy.