New Year, New Me?

2017 to some, has been a refreshing exit from the shit-storm that was 2016 and to others it’s same crap, different year. For me personally, I’m still on the fence on whether this new year has brought out any differences in me.

We are almost a month in and my personal life has changed quite a bit. I’ve attempted to let go of hurtful situations. Although just letting go is not enough, so I have come to discover. There’s a lot of painful memories that I can only wish would die with the ending of the year, but in reality it isn’t that easy.

This year as a promise to myself, I decided to do whatever I can to be a better me. If I can help others in any way, even if it was just put a smile on their face then that’s what I’ll do. I find complaining about any given situation isn’t going to magically resolve it, in fact that will only prolong the whole thing. Instead I’ve been trying to keep to my head on my shoulders a lot more than usual and always try to see the bigger picture.

Last year I suffered from depression for months at a time, I felt so lost that I couldn’t see a future for myself and figured if I can’t see it, then it wasn’t there. I was consumed by negativity and I let other people’s thoughts define who I was. They broke me down so much that I started to believe that what they said was who I truly am, even though I knew deep down that wasn’t me at all.

I have a long way to go before I will call myself better, but I feel like I’m taking the right steps to get me there. Last year was one that I would rather forget for many reasons, but hopefully I will be able to carry some things over that will make me a stronger person.

 

Thanks for reading – Sara

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  1. *hugs*
    Last year was a shitshow for many people, for various different reasons.
    But we’ll make this year better, if only for our own well being. πŸ™‚

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  2. At times, we all go through a rough patch, and at such times, you need to retract and retrace your steps to find out where and when exactly things went wrong and for what reasons. Such an introspection will definitely enable you to redefine your priorities and prepare a fresh plan of action for the future – all the very best to you all through 2017, and beyond! πŸ™‚

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  3. You are very pretty Sara. Thank you for your comment on my blog. With Brexit and all, last year may well have been a shitstorm in the U.K. This year with Trump’s-it we are just beginning our shitstorm in the U.S. I like to believe it’s always darkest before the dawn (a saying with Irish origins, like myself). It may be pretty damn dark right in the world now, but things will get brighter and better. They have to. Hang in there! Slainte!

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  4. Sara, that’s a lovely piece you’ve written. I was at an Open Mic event last year, where one of the poets read out a poem describing her journey into depression and how she’s coping with it. It was spellbinding and so moving – beyond words really, although I’ve tried to capture it in a poem (it’s like herding cats that are chasing mice!). I’ll share it when it’s done. Take care …

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  5. Hey Sara πŸ™‚ I love your blog… Thanks so much for liking my posts. As you may have read on my blog, I am in intuitive healer, I love making friends and sharing support with those are on a difficult path. I’m also in the UK Btw. I’d love to talk to you more, if you would like that. If so by all means get in touch πŸ™‚

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